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[lupusxylem]

I will not make this look pretty later, don't believe me it's all a lie

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INVENTORY:

-The Punisher: Wolfwood's cross gun, normally covered in wrappings.
INFO from the mods on use so I don't forget: The cross-gun will be able to fire regular bullets (regains of these can be handwaved; silvered bullets can be purchased in the bonus AC store) just fine, without any special nerfs. The laser feature will be usable a max of 3 times a month.

-4 Vials of his Drugs(tm)
Info from the mods on use so I don't forget: Wolfwood can start with up to 5 vials of his Lab Drugs. More of these can be regained for the price of a Small Item (a maximum of 5 at once), but they will not work on other player characters for obvious reasons. Their healing ability will also be slightly nerfed to not heal anything instantaneously, but rather over a few minutes.
3/7: All Vials have been used. Will need to purchase replacements if he wants to use them again.
???: Forgot to put the date here but he's purchased more Vials, one has been used to he has 4 currently.

-A lighter

-A carton of cigarettes, more can be purchased/handwaved

-A winter coat that Heimr bullied him into purchasing

-A matching pair of boots for the coat

-A little knit wolf with sunglasses from Elsword.

-A blanket from Livio.

-A handgun with a wolf engraved on the handle.

-A black husky named Angelina

-A belt pouch to carry his regeneration vials with a cross emblazoned into the leather.

-Authentic rosary beads, with beads made from black glass and a heavy, silver cross pendant

-A black leather choker with a silver cross pendant, similar to the rosary

-A whole church(tm)

-A wool knit cat plushie from Pure Vanilla

-3 tomas chicks that currently live in Kiera's barn

-3 londonites

-Wolf skull shaped cufflinks

-A dagger for his "birthday" from Gnosis

Comments

[succiduous]

...I'll wait until the tremors stop, at least.

[Gnosis is too observant to Not notice that. Give Wolfwood some time to drink something. It's not like they have IV technology here, at least not currently, so there was no way to keep him hydrated throughout. Not like Gnosis wouldn't have said "drink water" anyway, though.]

You are fine, if that's any consolation. I didn't dose you with anything that might cause a... reaction.

[Hard not to know about the drugs that melted his organs when, uh. Well. The drugs melted his organs—]

cw: human experimentation

[lupusxylem]

...yeah. I know.

[He brings his free hand close to his chest, flexing it a few times as if that will make the shaking stop. He knows it isn't weakness, or a reaction to the anesthetic or anything else.]

I just ain't had a procedure done in a long time. And the last one wasn't pretty.

[You know, when they strapped him to a cross and used him as a guinea pig for all kinds of trial drugs and shit.]

[succiduous]

You don't have to share if you don't want to, [Gnosis says, Very Aware this is a PTSD symptom because... well, yeah, hard not to know.] There's a grounding exersize you can do, if you'd like to.

["If you'd like to" because he knows Wolfwood can be... uncooperative.]

It's simple. Focus on the clock on the wall, and take a deep breath. Hold it for ten seconds, exhale slowly over ten more seconds. Do that for one minute.

["It'll lower your heartrate", he wants to say, but this is one of the rare times he bites his tongue and doesn't bother with the deeper explanation. This is anxiety control 101, Whisperain has people do this all the time, but maybe to Wolfwood it's something new. What's the mental healthcare like in NML anyway—]

[lupusxylem]

[Yeah no, Gnosis is exactly right on that. It’s…not something he’s talked about to anyone but Vash (Livio knows, he doesn’t need to be told more), and possibly Mizuki depending on how their therapy sessions go, but the PTSD runs strong in this man. He doesn’t mean to be vague, it’s just…you know. He really does appreciate Gnosis not asking questions, more than he really knows.

Wolfwood tilts his head a little- he’ll try anything once- and looks over at the wall as suggested. Take a deep breath…

He follows his instructions. Slowly, carefully. After a moment he finds his eyes drifting closed, no longer looking at the clock but still following the breathing exercises. It isn’t until a moment or more has passed that Wolfwood opens his eyes again, no longer trembling. His heartrate, though previously spiked, has returned to something mostly normal.]

…thank you. That helps.

[succiduous]

[You don't question a man on his past and his traumas man, you let that shit come out when you're ready. Unless you're a therapist, which Gnosis is not.]

Just remember it for when you're in that mindset and somewhere without any actual danger. [Don't do it in combat etc.] Re-hydrate. Then we can talk on how to actually utilize the prosthetic correctly.

[lupusxylem]

[Wolfwood nods, taking a moment to have another sip of that water in the silence that follows. He’ll drain half the glass before he seems fit to speak again, leaning his head back against the pillows.]

…okay. I’m good now.